“Deafness” by Denise Boehler


He couldn’t see her

For all she’d come to be

It was all she ever longed for

And with him not to be

His vision his life so complete

Without her he now lives

It was the life she always longed for

And the one for which she grieves

All she asked for was his opened heart

The intimacy lying within

All she wanted from devotion

Was loneliness to leave and nurturing to begin

Something deep inside his being

Blocked the pathway to her calls

Now she walks alone

Feels the pain in her interior walls

She works ever so diligently

At looking deeply, shredded remains

Her constructed self she’s dissecting

Deep beliefs once holding her in restrain

She knows not the direction of her future

Nor the counterpart with whom she might share

She knows the one tender heart held for herself

Is not an organ she can continue to tear

For its ripping open leaves only pieces

Drowns her in her own despair

And as she calls for him, return to my life

In the silence of her mind

Her voice he’ll never hear

For it falls unto ears blind

It is her voice she needs to hear

The one she is making loud and ever so true

The one that calls back to herself, I love, and I see YOU, I am always here.


 About the Author: 
Denise Boehler is a Naropa graduate with a masters in eco-psychology, and a background in law, real estate, and animal advocacy. She is always interested in finding ways to cultivate communication between people and animals, in being a voice for the voiceless. From homeless dog advocacy to wolf reintroduction to coexistence with bears to saving roadside wildlife, her passions derive from a lifelong love affair with animals. Visit her (wildsight.co or womensight.co) or connect with her on LinkedIn.
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Editor’s Note: June is worth celebrating!

TROU is turning one and I’m so excited. I am over the moon that this little space in the universe is still here and that you have decided to join in. When I started this magazine my

_Happy 1st Birthday to TROU!

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mission was to provide a safe space to explore love, in it’s many forms, shapes, and sizes. It warms my heart that you have found this space and that you have shared a piece of your love story along the way.

I want to say that we are doing something big here, even though it is still small. Declaring to the world that we are worthy, in whatever way we choose to do so, is important, is daring, is changing the world. You dear reader, are changing the world. I hope these love stories have brought you comfort, made you think, and made a shift in a world that is cruel and unkind toward a more accepting and welcoming place.

June is also a time to celebrate pride, a movement that protests marginalization and celebrates people for who they are and who they love. You know TROU is behind that 100%.


So from TROU to you, Happy Birthday and Happy Pride.

You are so loved.